Wednesday, December 28, 2011

My SSG Experience: Serving, Transfroming, Sustaining


My experience in the student government is a fitting cherry on top of my banana split experience as a student in the university. It is, should I say, the culmination and the summit of my entire Ateneo college life, for it is in this part of my life that depth of understanding on life’s values and a wider perspective on things have come to my awareness. 

Leadership and Politics

The most important thing I learned in the student government is leadership – its theoretical and practical approaches and the reconciliation of the two. I also came to a point of diagnosing where politicking and the dirty games of politics begin in the call for leadership.

Leadership begins with a conscious choice to serve others as Greenleaf pointed out. It is a path chosen by those who like Christ would want to go deep down the trash bin in order to save souls and teach them self-advancement and growth rather than simply turn the trash bin outside down. It is a service experience where leaders have to be like Jesus, the Emmanuel, the God-with-us where integration of the self, the personal values of one, and the character and the needs of the other must occur. It is an experience where one needs to stop, to listen, to understand and to reflect. A leader must always know what his heart yearns for. A leader must always evaluate he values most despite the deafening sound of personal interest, of self-gratification, of honor and of awards. More importantly, a leader must learn to immerse himself to the community he ought to serve. He must be able to build communities by valuing others which he must show by first and foremost by learning to listen and to weigh things free from biases and prejudices in order to search for truth for it is truth that will serve as his strength. It is this truth that will serve as his guiding star so that wherever he may find himself, be it at the expense of all possible awards and honors he may get, he will find happiness and solitude for himself and for those whom he chose to serve. The search for truth however will entail that a leader must have a heart, a mind and an ear as big as the whole world.

Politicking, just like leadership, begins with people thinking of themselves and evaluating their personal values. This in its very nature is not wrong provided that it does not impede critical thinking and the ability to listen without biases and prejudices and the humbling experience of being compassionate so as to be with others and to be on where they currently stand. It is when one decides to stand for his values without thinking of others or providing that necessary openness to come to an understanding with the other that politicking begins. It is the art of looking for trouble, finding it whether it exists or not, diagnosing it incorrectly, and applying the wrong remedy as Earnest Benn says it. It is in this scenario that the quote “Nobody gets out of politics clean” is immortalized. One, though he may choose to lead, will not be able to lead and escape the dirty games of politics if a politician exists in his environment. The latter will either create mud for the former to throw or the latter will be the very same person to start throwing mud at the former. The leader is then left at a dilemma to throw back a mud to save his face and tell the whole world that he is clean or to stick with genuine leadership at heart despite all the mockery and political tricks thrown at him though this would mean modern-day crucifixion and martyrdom. Despite the cleanness of heart of one to serve, it is very much certain that he will not get out clean in this system.

My SSG Engagement

My nine months of engagement in the student government have been filled with troubles, issues, problems, conflicts and misunderstanding internally in the SSG, with my fellow students and with the administrators. These experiences are the ones I treasured the most though they have given me heartaches, headaches and sleepless nights for it is in these experiences that I learned to engage in dialogue, to listen to others and to forego with my prejudices and biases in search for the truth. It is in these events that I learned to feel compassion, to be with others in spirit and more importantly, to value them. It is also in these experiences that I learned to be critical and to be professionally skeptical so as not to become an easy prey of prejudice, personal interest and fraud. These moments have led me to scrutinize myself more, to reflect and discern more deeply so as to know what I truly value most in life. It is in these events I say that I have truly grown as a person and as an Atenean. I am very much thankful for this opportunity of knowing myself more and of experiencing a bit the reality which I will have to face outside the portals of the Ateneo, my comfort zone.

Aside from growing as a person, I am very much happy that we were able to initiate the needed reform in an institution which was already at the brink of losing its very essence for the students and for the university community. With reflection, we were able to identify that representation and service are the most crucial functions of the student government.

In its representation function, the student government serves as the voice of the students in all university issues and concerns that is why student government officers sits in university councils and committees. They are tasked to air out the concerns of the students on different policies, proposals and programs so as not to put at stake their welfare. This imposes a vital responsibility to all officials and volunteers to first and foremost listen and to be aware of the sentiments of the students they ought to serve and represent. This is better done by creating communities of dialogues, immersion and direct engagement with the students. Online networking sites are a good way to do this but the superficiality of these modes must not hamper the creation of authentic and genuine relationship between and among the officials and the ordinary students. 

Our administration prides itself of having good, active and participative student representatives in different councils and committees of the university. We have provided good and strong inputs in the discussions of these university arms and have firmly stood for student welfare carrying the mantra of being a pro-student rather than as anti-admin. Our major lapse however is our inability to build communities and the lack of empowerment of the student congress. Yes, we have created and supported good policies and programs for the students. Yes, we have an active group where students are free to disclose and we also have an online form where students can submit queries, reports and complaints. Yes, we have acted upon these concerns raised. Unfortunately, these are only short-term. We have started reaching out but we have not yet achieved our goal of bringing back the student government to the student body. We have only stayed in that superficial interaction students through FB and online forms. We have not forged genuine relationship with the majority of the students in the grass roots leaving sustainable engagement and unity among students just a dream for the future leaders still to fulfil.

Service, on the other hand, incidentally carries with it the formative function of the student government. It must be able to deliver programs that will contribute to the university mission of forming individuals who competent, conscientious, Christ-centered and compassionately committed to change. It must have at its core the ability to cater to the needs of the students for them to be freed from the shackles that hamper them in advancing, developing and growing. This we did by streamlining the functions in the SSG by having a permanent volunteer pool and the creation of the departments. We also had a better delivery of the intramurals and by providing varied topics given by famous national personalities for the Alternative Class Program.  

The SSG FB page and online complaints form perhaps are the most famous mark of this administration. Unfortunately, it is also on these two modes that the greatest issue on service which the student government must act upon dwells.  The greatest service which the student government gives is raising student concerns and acting upon them but this practice puts student leaders in a dilemma as to the meaning of service. To what extent should he engage in behalf of the student? To what extent should he raise voice for the persons he ought to represent? How can he better empower the students raising queries and complaints to show up and go beyond the superficiality of the cyberworld and face those persons he is complaining about?

 The rest of our accomplishments, other issues being faced and plans by the student government in the next two months, you can view at a separate post.

My Most Memorable Experiences

                In SSG, nothing beats knowing and spending time with the people the student government ought to serve. Nothing beats appreciating the diverse interests of student organizations and sharing in these interests in order to build partnership and lifetime friendship.

 Among others, I treasure those moments when I spent time listening to poetries and stories by Ateneo Literary Association, chatting with members of EAGLES INC during the Xavier Day and with APEX members during a COP orientation, Hi’s and Hello’s of Junior Eagles in their everyday fund raising for their EAR project at the four pillars, jamming with the CCD Voltz during the reverse carolling, spending a Christmas party with CSVs, tutorials with ACIL, Rice forum with EcoSoc, Testimonial Dinner with JPIA, planning for the Xavier Cup with the Remontados Debaters, supporting the Golden Knights and meeting them personally and watching and learning football during the Ateneo Football League. These and all other interactions allowed me to see the needs in the different niches of the life an Ateneo student giving me a bigger picture of how to bring the SSG closer to the students. These and all other meet ups and chats showed to me that SSG life ironically is not about papers, discussions, policies, programs, services, proposals, representations, complaints, funds, grievances, resolutions, court decisions, chaotic elections, propagandas, platforms and parties.  More than anything else, it is about building communities. It is about building a family of Ateneans who share the same vision and who share the same fate. It is about friendship, partnership and alliances, working together and working things out. It is about listening with one another, engaging in dialogues in search for truth and sharing the spirit and the heart of leadership and service to promote development of individuals, of the Ateneo community and in the long run, the development of the nation and of Bikol in particular.

The irony however about this realization is that while I am humbled by these experiences with different organizations, I have failed to create a community within the student government itself. I found the student government as an office, as an institution and as a workplace. Admittedly, I was very much task-oriented seeing the things which we have to rebuild and the services and programs we have to offer. I fear that if things wouldn’t be made the soonest time possible, we might find ourselves in an irrelevant institution. I felt the need to resuscitate the SSG by pushing hard and working to achieve the goals regardless of who will be affected, regardless of who will be sacrificed. Now, I am the reaping the fruits of this strategy. Indeed, the ssg has started to become relevant for the students and for the university but I have lost the opportunity of becoming good friends with my co-officers whom with all honesty, until just recently I have considered simply as partners and co-workers and some of them, even subordinates. I have been a good manager for the ssg but I have failed to become a leader for these people.  I thought service for and with others is directed only towards the persons whom we ought to serve as officers of the government. I missed that when Christ said serve one another, those others also include the members of my immediate community, Chucky, Lanz, Ryciel, Faith, Marian, Paw, Nadine, Noel, Ryan, AA, Kim, Felix, Van, John, Kevin, Ralph and Darren. I have failed to lend my ears to them. I have also failed to share my heart with them and this, I regret this very day.

The only thing I have for now is hope, hope that things would be better, that we would perfectly understand each other and we will never be aloof with me just as I am with them.  I do not know where to begin but I remain hopeful. I do not know when the wounds with heal but I remain hopeful and open for all possibilities.


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